Behave

Sent you a little note
Because I felt like it
Wrote you a little song
It was the perfect fit
And I’m not supposed to still be in love with you
And I’m not supposed to still act like this
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave

And in the morning I was just wishing I could wake up next to you
And in the morning I was just wishing that you were here
You’d hold me in the sunlight
I could stare at your face
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave

And if I could step back
And re-trace my steps
I’d figure out
How you stole my heart
I’d make amends
And I’d get it back
I’d give it to someone
Who really knows
That I’ll behave
And I’ll behave

Sent you a little note
Because I felt like it
Wrote you a little poem
It was the perfect fit
And I’m not supposed to still be in love with you
And I know I’m not supposed to still act like this
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave
And I say
This is exactly how I should behave



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Blue

Blue
your touch is blue
you were never red
never even purple
come into my head
I will color us in
thoughts of you
I try to filter them
but I come up with memories
instead I am still
keeping you close
along with my
box of crayons
I choose to keep
your memory close
I will color us in
you see, I
I don’t really need
don’t really need
you anymore
I don’t really need
don’t really need
you anymore
I can create
until this is dead
until this is dead
until this is dead
or
your touch
turns
blue


Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Can I Skip The Ride Home

A night without you
A mist that shows reflection
Can I catch that running train?
A smart man with words
Makes for funny talking
You can have this dance
You can this dance
But I can skip the ride home?

I’m slipping
A moment made for falling over
More will follow
I need to hold on tightly
Onto your coattails
Like in those child star movies
Adults play out kid themes
You can have this dance with me

I keep my tired eyes open
Loss for words
The watchmen on the highways
Into this blue stretch of forgotten sky
A night without you

You can have this dance
You can this dance
But I can skip the ride home?
 

Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Fine

It now comes near, my winter mind
I have loved you for all this time
My October heart
Your November smile
Our merry December
Our new January
Little tears in February
All of these months you were mine
All of these months after you
All of these months I live without you
I will be fine
I will be fine



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Hidden

I hid the knives
In the kitchen drawer, now
I gave my love
But you want more, yeah
I’ll make you my heart
With colored paper
I’d tell you lies
If it would save us

I hid the pills
In the bathroom cabinet
I gave my body
But you want more than that
I’ll make desire
With wings to surround you
I’d tell the truth
But what good would that do?

You’re out there falling in and out of love
With people you meet
You’re breathing, making your pillow
Full of all of your dreams
You’re lovely
Everyone can see that
Especially me, especially me

I won’t love you less
I can’t love you more than this
I fall into a Snow White sleep
And wait for your kiss



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Kaleidoscope

I thought I could be your drug
Cause you were my wine
And we could disappear
Into this sweetness, you and I

You’re calling me baby on the phone now
What exactly does that mean?
And he’s saying I love you before we hang up
But I can’t feel it from here

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope

I pour this drink full, pour this glass
Swirl with ice, down the sink it goes
I put your taste, your smile, your laugh
Somewhere where I can’t find them

You’re calling me baby on the phone now
What exactly does that mean?
And he’s saying I love you before we hang up
But I can’t feel it from here

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope

Stay still now in my arms
Be calm, in our storm
Bring fire to my heart
But just don’t touch me anymore

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope
 

Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Montreal

For all the times you fell apart, dear
Even though you’re gone
I’ve got these pieces of you
I called a cab cause you’d been drinking
I wrote your address down
While you fell asleep to the sounds
Of our city

I don’t think I could really hold you
My awkward arms, your elegance
We never made it to Montreal, dear
I got your postcard today
The one you wrote in some café
While it was raining

Tonight my lips can feel you kiss them
So you’ll be my ghost
I’ll be the one you need
Sometimes I still pick up the phone, dear
To hear your voice
To hear you tell me
To go to sleep
In our city



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Perfectly Complete

Do you get me
When you kiss me like that?
Or does it just feel good?
It’s as simple as that

You liar
And devil
Perfectly complete
For me

Did you mean to
Stop over tonight?
Or were you just lost
In this big city night?

You liar
My devil
Perfectly serene
For me

Did you mean to
Call me like that?
Or was it the drinking
That makes you feel bad?

You liar

Do you need me
When you kiss me like that?
Or does just feel good?
It’s as simple as that

You liar
And devil
You liar
My devil
Perfectly complete
For me


Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Resist

Resist, only to break down
Push ahead twice as hard
If there’s no damage now
Then there’s no damage done
Deny me this
Deny yourself
But there is still this passion

I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…

I comply to complication
I’ve always been that type of dark angel
Apologize to no one
You can’t say this doesn’t excite you
You feel it, so go with it
But always be afraid of it

I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…

You’ll live
I keep saying I’ll make it through this
I stay and smile, there’s our laughter to live for
My instincts send me down this spiral
Down this staircase
Now I afraid my resisting
Is the thing that sent you

I think you want to
I think you ought to
I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Significant

Bright as light
We were lit at both ends
Candles burning
I let go of us again
I never wanted this over
You never wanted as much
Please take me down with you
Please remember to forget us

And I only wonder why
Beyond our story, beyond the sky

Tonight you needed me
While I was letting you go
It set off all these feelings
I just don’t want you to know
I never wanted your prison
You never wanted as much
I forgive our ending
But I’ll never… release you touch

And I only wonder why
Beyond our story, beyond the sky
Are we significant you and I?
Are we significant you and I?

Delicate love
In your arms
I could not wait
Cruel trick, my fate

Sound and flame flicker
Like my television set
Will you just come over?
I still need you in my bed
I’ve been stealing love that isn’t mine
Whisper something to me sweetly
Kiss me endless and kind

And I have to wonder why
Beyond our story
Beyond the sky
Are we significant, you and I?
Are we significant, you and I?
And I only wonder why
And I only wonder why
Are we significant, you and I?
Beyond our story
Beyond the sky



Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Snow

I was running to my car last night
It was freezing cold
Along with the inches of snow
I was thinking about how vivid
The Michigan snow was to you once
And now how blurred that memory is
While you now know of no snow
In North Carolina
I often wonder why things changed
Why now it’s only me who knows
Of cold and snow
Why I had to buy a pair of boots
While you have probably long
Since thrown yours away

The season only has to last
For a couple of months I know
I can deal with that

But I can’t seem to deal with the season
Having to do with our friendship ending
My mind makes no sense to you anymore
And how we try so desperately hard
To keep the memory of the people
We once were, the friends we were
Alive in our minds
We force ourselves

Long since I’ve watched you go
And long since last winter’s snow
I felt hurt and I kept it inside
And I keep living on without you
Differently, yes differently

I open my car door and slam it shut
I open my car door and slam it shut
 

Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Under This Moon

I’d love you when it’s raining
when the sun scorches, the snow falls
if I knew what love was

I’d love you in the restaurant
on the mountain, near the water
but I don’t think I know how to love at all

I’d love you my whole life
yesterday, tomorrow
if I knew what time was

I’d love you through your mornings
days and midnights
but I don’t think I know how to give my time at all

there’s a cool, dry place
under this moon
and a warm, safe heart
will find me soon

17 more midnights to get through
18 to beat the feelings
I have for you

I’d love you without fortune
With no safety with no shelter
If I knew what sacrifice was

I’d love you, make an altar
Sanctuary, make the wound heal
But I don’t know how to remove my own walls

I’d love you when it’s raining
when the sun scorches, when the snow falls
if I knew what love was

I’d love you in the restaurant
on the mountain, near the water
but I don’t think I know how to love at all

I had no choice
but to tell you my name, my name


Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

Wish

I wish I had been
Gorgeous in your eyes
Beautiful that day
Beautiful in that way

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want that?
And if we had to
Give it all back
I don’t think I could
But I think you should

I wish I had
Gotten the joke
But it wasn’t funny
Baby, you’re not funny

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want it?
And if we had to
Give the love back
I don’t think I could
But I wish you would

I wish our paths
Never crossed that day
You’d have been running late
Or I had walked a different way-

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want that?
And if we had to
Give it all back
I don’t think I could
But I think you should
Oh I do think you should

Words and Music by
Kari Newhouse
©2003 Nubamusic

All of This

All of the cars, were still driving
All of the states, were in silence
All the noise we could make
Were the thoughts running circles
Boys in their camouflage
I still got your 501’s on

All of the sand remained under footfall
All fear contained
Into hearts, into cardiac
What I know
Is its not enough
Just to know
That we know too much
Each morning brings you to me
Nothing can take that from me, no

While it is, still a new year
In the start, completely fertile
So simple to lose
Your face, but we promise to look away

What I know is it hurts
To believe in what will happen
All you need in this game
Are human heartbeats

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

And Then They Say

And then they say
Tides will overflow
And what they mean
Is the water will be drowning
And then they say
The winds will take us home
I say they all are liars

And then they say
Grandma will rise from the dead
And so I pray each night
With my hands holding my head
I look at the graves
Of my friends who are still living
And then I say lay more flowers
Be more forgiving

Show us your scars of living

And then they say
No more people will die
And what they mean
Is not in the next hour
And then they say
The coast is clear
You can go and start your life

And then they say
The pain is needed for healing
I say corruption
Lies in the safest places and feelings
And then they say
My friends will rise from the dead
So I pray each night with my hands
Holding my head

I say
I say, they say
I say
I say, they say
Who cares if this rhymes?
Who cares if this is in tune?
Who cares if this rhymes?
Who cares if this is in tune?
Out of tune
Out of time
Out of tune
Out of time
Out of tune
Out of time

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Disappointments

There’s gonna be
Big disappointments, baby
I never promised candy
There will be
Ghosts that enter and exit
I tried to shake them off
The best that I could

There’s gonna be
Intense love and conviction
I swear sometimes
It may be overpowering
But I’ll be here
For you to talk about us
To talk about me
To talk about you

So I’ll be here
To choose the disappointments
And receive all the passion
There’s gonna be
Disappointments darling…

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Electric

I watch my shadow
Sometimes you look like my shadow
But I watch you closely
And I want you mostly

I step into nightfall
Leaving you by the seaside
I sometimes leave my feelings there
When your smile is electric

Chorus:
If living is so simple
Then why am I always running?
It’s getting hard to realize
That I’m always running
This life is to be gorgeous
Oh this life
This life is to be gorgeous
Oh this life

In trying to warn you
It seems that you’ve become closer
But it’s way too late now
I look at you mostly

(Chorus)

So, I have told you
Sometimes you look like my shadow
When you’re on my side
And your smile is electric

(Chorus)

When you run with me
And your smile is electric
When you run with me
And your mile is electric
When you run with me
And your smile is electric

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Everywhere

Things once have again turned cold
I’d like to make peace with this
I’d like to take part in this
Scene we’ve set

And I fall into your arms
When I meant to be
Kicking and screaming
And I’m all messed up
As everyone’s dialect
Is different than mine
Everywhere

So the bars have closed
A sure sign that means the night is gone
And you should be getting on home anyway
And it’s so quiet in this night

And I fall against your chest
When I meant to be
Kicking and screaming
And this is all messed up
As everyone’s drink
Is different than mine
Everywhere

Unless we
Live for tonight
And turn things up, sweetness
It’s just you and me
Right where we’re not supposed to be

And I kiss your lips
When I meant to be
Kicking and screaming
And this is all messed up
As my timing is off
From everyone’s
Everywhere

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Killer Storm

I can’t spend my time
Worrying
About the darkness in you
Whatever it is
It moves me

Stay with me
If only for a little while
Can’t you hear
The dark night
Whatever that sound is
It moves me

You keep me warm
You keep me warm

I have always believed
In the light you turned on in me
There’s a rage in me
Comes a killer storm
You bring it on
I say come on
Come on

I hot a wired his soul
A violation
A mistake I made
But if I can keep up this game
I know that its wrong but it moves me

You keep me warm
You keep me warm
You turn me on
You keep me warm

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

My Blood Needs This Race

Promises don’t flatter construction
It’s a green light
When I say when
It seems you choose not to listen
Your prior preference
Just don’t take
Time to hold me

Chorus:
In lifting and dropping
You’re pushing this
I’m stopping
This dreaming it’s awful
I’m almost tasting emotion
In lifting and dropping
You’re pushing this
I’m stopping
This dreaming it’s awful
I’m almost tasting emotion

Hardships don’t impress
Present tones
The poor have grown up backwards
And you call this place home
My blood needs this race
My blood needs this race

(Chorus)

Surely we’re not the weak ones
If you prescribe
Its called self control
But still you choose to hold me
But I can’t keep still…

In lifting and dropping
You’re pushing this
I’m stopping
This dreaming it’s awful


Words and Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Righteous

You are painfully restless
You are so excruciatingly gorgeous
You or me, one of us will go down
And who will wait to see
The memory of us

Me, I’, so painfully gutless
Me, I so desperately want this

Want your hands to touch me
Want this love to bring you
To your knees
Want you
You…

We both know
There’s attraction going on here
A kiss, a long hug
And all must be forgotten

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Scenery

Boy, I fear there’s trouble
The toil of all men
I’ve danced with a mystery
I’ve filled darkened demands

You say girl, I fear there’s trouble
The toil of all women
You lay your head on their breast
And all your sins
Are forgiven

I could build your scenery
I could make you part of me
But the bad taste is spilling
Onto the streets
And no one is listening

Fiction, oh to write this
No story written
Would ever be so complete
As in apples, only seeds

I could build your scenery
I could make you part of me
But the bad taste is spilling
Onto the streets
And no one is listening

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Skipping Stones

This time, time won’t tell
The stories we’ve been through
Its mouth is closed tight
And all I can seem to do

Is stare at your house
There’s a little light on
In your window
And I go into the room
I’ve been into
Many times before
When the girls
Were skipping stones

Skipping stones
The girls are
And I’m erasing the marks
That you’ve left on my heart
Holding onto the arms of this chair
While I thinking

And I’m looking for your footprints
In the dark
There’s a little light on in your window
And I go into the room
I’ve been into
Many times before
When the girls
Were skipping stones

This time, time won’t tell
What we’ve done to each other
We have hurt one another
But both are mouths are closed tight
I still hold onto the light
I still hold onto the light
I stole from your room

I stole from your room
There’s a little light on
In your window
And I go into the room
I’ve been into
Many times before
When the girls
Were skipping stones

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic

Warning Shots

You look like me
When you’re made up
And you have no place to
Go shoot warnings
Just like gunfire
I’d been standing too close
You believe in
The religion of dreamers
You’ll shoot warnings before
Long as I want
For you to believe me
For all these things I haven’t done

As long as I want
You will be there
The one to toast me through the times
To hold your desires until
The right one comes along
The skyline
When I’m with him
You’ll shoot warnings before long
Long as I want
For you to forgive me
For all these things I haven’t done

Before the kiss comes
Can I run far
Away from this night
And what we stand for?
I’ll shoot warnings
I’ll shoot warnings
With my life
I’ll shoot warnings with my eyes
I’ll shoot warnings with my life

Long as I want
Long as I want…

Words & Music
By Kari Newhouse
© 1996 Nubamusic