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The Lucky Few - 2016

Triple

And you’re fragile
I took it too far to the edge
Is it tragic
When love isn’t given a chance?
It’s the hope that can drown you
When looking for air
It’s over
Why should I care?

The single thing I want the most is you
Triple my desire and follow through

It’s a lie now
It’s a lie
I’m all right now
I’m all right

Through the static
The channels turn you on and off
Is it reckless to want you
When love is half gone
It’s that hope that you die for
When lying in your arms
Its over
I should be strong

The single thing I want the most is you
Triple my desire and follow through

It’s a lie now
It’s a lie
Say goodnight now
Say goodnight

And you’re careful
These words and language unsaid
It's so tragic
When you wouldn’t give us chance
It’s over
Why should I care?

The single thing I want the most is you
Triple my desire and follow through

Say goodnight now
Make it right
I’m all right now
I’m all right
Its a lie now
It’s a lie
Say goodnight now
Say goodnight

Through

I don’t how to stop
And I don’t remember when we began
I don’t know when to let go
And I don’t know why you did

Wonder if I take two steps towards you
Afraid of my desire to
Why do we play these games like we do?
Are we through?

It’s 3 in the morning and
I won’t sleep tonight
Somewhere you’re reading now
Somewhere, someone is turning off the light

Wonder if I take two steps towards you
Disguised by my right to
Why do we play these games like we do?
Are we through?

I can’t stay strong
I’ve already done all that
And you’ve taken too long
To come to my rescue
This won’t take long
Just a lifetime
My actions, your reasons

The city is coded with a layer
Of a thousand dreams
My love it floats for you
In every cloud
Every moment
Everything

Wonder if I take two steps towards you
Afraid of my desire to
Why do we play these games like we do?
Are we through?

React

Lets both get lost, go in deep, avoid all exits out
I found you first, and couldn’t stay away for long
Let's both dive in, the water’s dark, the water holds onto her keep
I saw you first, and you’re right where you belong

I wanna see you, I wanna see you
I wanna see you react
I wanna see you, I wanna see you
I wanna see you react

Let's both shoot first, take the chance
The gun can smoke so long
And not look back, at who started it all
Let’s drive this fast, and hang on, one minute at a time
Then we’ll subtract, the road that was all wrong

I wanna feel you, I wanna feel you
I wanna feel you react
I wanna feel you, I wanna feel you
I wanna feel you react

Let’s both light up, illuminate, be the brightest stars around
And not get burned, by the ones that drag us down
Let's not look back, hear the sounds, and drop all artifacts
Let's both react, push ahead and not break down

I wanna see you, I wanna feel you
I wanna see you react
I wanna feel you, I wanna feel you
I wanna see you react
I wanna touch you, I wanna touch you
I wanna feel you react

Unspoken

I call you lost
I call you back
I call you love
I call you that
I call you faith
I call your bluff
I call you pain
I call you lust
I call you mine
I call you for keeps
I call you love
I call you love

Calm Me Down

This is me and my smile
And my painting unfinished
You are here but her ghost
Is slightly in view
I am young I am old and my waters’ are troubled
But you calm, you calm,
You calm me down
But you calm, you calm
You calm me down

If I dream that I can and I keep running faster
I can hold onto something
Someone like you
In your face I see mine
And you never stop staring
And you wait, you wait
You wait for me
And you wait, you wait
You wait for me

I walk through your walls
And drink down this confusion
I bathe in your smiles
And dance in your light
Many years from now
We will all be forgotten

But for now, for now, for now
You love me
But for now, for now, for now
You love me

Train Come Back Train

My love is far far away
Train come back train
Sip of gin, her number made you stray
Train come back train

Give me 20 dollars baby
Give me 20 more
I’ll get me on your mind either way
Call you from the rooftops, holler
Call you everyday
I’ll get me on your mind either way

Devil done gone look me in the eye
Train come back train
Gotta leave this town and purify
Train come back train

Give me 20 hallelujahs
Give me 20 more
I’ll get you off my mind either way
Call you from the rooftops, holler
Call you everyday
I’ll get you off my mind either way

Train, train, train, train

My love is far far away
Train come back train
I think that should be just where you stay
Train come back train

Give me 20 dollars baby
Give me 20 more
I’ll get you off my mind either way
I Call you from the rooftops, holler
Call you everyday
I’ll get you off my mind either way

Train, train, train, train

Gone and Gone

All of our love has gone dry
Drink up my love
And I will keep you warm
This is all we’ve ever known

All of our words have been said
Listen my love
And I won’t say a word
Its’ all I can do to be heard

Last night
Wading through this
Sea of empathy
You were standing in pills
Waist deep
And loving you
Is not what it seems

I don’t know how to stop
And I don’t when we began
How do we get out
Before we start all over again

Last night
Wading through this
Sea of empathy
You were standing in drinks
Waist deep
And being with you
Is not what it seems

But all of our love has gone dry
Drink up my love
And I will keep the light on
Even after I’m gone
After I’m gone
After I’m gone
After I’m gone
Gone and gone

We Fall

Looking over the cliff
Looking out for yourself
You took away all fears
I’m going into this
With everything that I’ve got

She whispers a promise
For you to wake up to
You pass me off to a friend
With one parachute
I get ready for the drop

Say something
Why to me, why this now?
Replay me
When I am not around
We fall so beautifully hard
But what if you’d held onto me?

Building a house
Paper love notes and twine
I’m here in the rain
Standing off to the side
She was the shelter
From our storm

Years may erase hurt
Life gets you sidetracked
One kiss, one tug, one look
Brings it all back
But I will never move past you

Say something
Why to me, why this now?
Replay me
When I am not around
We fall so beautifully hard
But what if you’d held onto me?
What if you’d held onto me?

Looking over the crowd
Looking for someone new
Not net to catch us
We don’t get to choose this
The thrill and pain
Of it all

No longer waiting on
Your mind to change so I
Go on pretending
There’s no one to blame
But life
It goes on and on

Say something
Why to me, why this now?
Replay me
When I am not around
We fall so beautifully hard
We fall so beautifully far
We fall so beautifully hard
We fall so beautifully hard
But what if you’d held onto me?
What if you’d held onto me?

Isn't it Always

Somewhere in your eyes I got lost
Between talking, between our hands, between us
I feel so scattered
I’ll pick up the pieces you said (when?)
But we’re a long ways apart in my head
In my head-

Somewhere in my life, I got lost
Between feeling too much and wanting it all
I feel so trapped now
I’ll break all the locks you said (when?)
But I’m trying to make things right in my head
In my head-

You run and I’ll keep up the chase
Let's live like we mean it
You save the time
I’ll hide it away
When nobody’s looking
I’ll kiss you once, blow you away
You’ll wake up and want it
Can’ see my life
Love's in the way
Isn’t it always?

And where are we now, after all?
Between memories, between these scars and walls
I feel so hopeful
I’ll be with ‘til the end (yes)
All I see is you in my head
In my head-

You run and I’ll keep up the chase
Let's live like we mean it
You save the time
I’ll hide it away
When nobody’s looking
I’ll kiss you once, blow you away
You’ll wake up and want it
Can’t see my life
You’re in the way
But aren’t you always?
Can’t see my life
Love's in the way
But isn’t it always?
Can’t see my life
Love's in the way
Isn’t it always?

Somewhere in your eyes I got lost

4 Days and 3 Nights

Parts of me I left inside him
Like what to wear
When it’s cold outside

I gave you everything
All of my life
Slow motion storms you bring
4 days and 3 nights

Parts of me I left beside her
Like how to feel
On a rainy day

I wrote you everything
All of my life
But so much love you bring
4 days and 3 nights

Parts of me died
When I left you alone there
What do I do?
To make my love right

I gave you everything
All of my life
Slow motion storms you bring
4 days and 3 nights

I gave you everything
All of my life
Slow motion storms you bring
4 days and 3 nights

Produced and Engineered by Dean Kattari
Kari Newhouse - Lead and Backing Vocals, Guitars, Keyboards, Lap Steel, additional recording
Dean Kattari - Bass, Guitars, Keyboard
Robb Milne - Drums, Percussion
Barbara Allen - Backing Vocals (React and My Point is This)
Namoli Brennet - Backing Vocals (Isn't it Always)
Cover Artwork - Karlie Kirkaldie
Recorded in Portland, OR at Type Foundry, KNS and Dean K Productions
Mastered by Kevin Nettleingham at Nettleingham Audio

Kari Newhouse Songs From Apartment 4 album cover

Songs From Apartment 4 - 2012

Bloom

You say on the day we met
You only remember the rain, yet
You can tell me everything I wore
Down to my old brown shoes
You say on the day we spoke
You only remember the snow, but
I could feel your nervousness
As I held you in the cold

Plant a garden of new things
With the soil a fertile spring
So I put myself in you
See if my love grows

I say on the nights we spent
I was only having fun, yet
You knew my feelings were real
Even if I played them off
I say that our lives be spent
With each other
With our friends
How we remember in the end
Doesn’t matter

Plant a garden of new things
With the soil a fertile spring
So I put myself in you
See if my love grows
My love grows for you
Will my love grow?
Will my love grow?
Plant a garden of new things
With the soil a fertile spring
So I put myself in you
See if my love grows
Plant a garden of new things
With the soil a fertile spring
So I put myself in you
See if my love grows
For you

I See You

I see you, I see you as I walk in the room
I feel good, I feel all of those good things I do
Say hello, say hello to all of my friends
So I try, to be cool around you, I pretend
Then you order me a drink
And my heart and head leave my feet

Say my name, say my name and my heart starts to race
Say your name, and your smile it starts the chase
Then you ask if you can call
As the walls around us falls
As the walls around us falls

I see you, I see you as I walk in the room
I feel good, I feel all of those good things I do
I’m not sure if I’m doing any of this right
So I stare back at you for the rest of the night

And you order me a drink
And my heart and head leave my feet

You can call, you can call me anytime
I see you and you’re all that’s on my mind
I see you, I see you and I feel fine
I feel fine

Perpetual

A glow in the dark star
Followed me for days
I just gave it away
Now I can’t see the light
Even through the day
I am not afraid

If the secrets’
Hard to bear
That’s a burden we can share
If it’s too much
I’ll be there
If it’s too much
I’ll be there

I am using up precious time
Reliving memories
I should leave behind
Will I add up?
To what I used to be
I have to believe

If the days are
Hard to bear
That’s a burden we could share
If it’s too much
I’ll be there
If it’s too much
I’ll be there

I was using your heart again
I thought I was clever
But in the end
The lies add up
To where I just sink, not swim
Here we go again

If the secret’s
Hard to bear
That’s a burden we could share
If it’s too much
I’ll be there
If it’s too much
I’ll be there

We go ‘round and ‘round it goes on
We go ‘round and ‘round it goes on

The Gears

It was the kiss that fed the mouth that moved the hands the way you do
It was the night that felt the rush that pushed time aside for me for you
It was the torture in my soul that cried out for you again and again
It was the feeling that fed the pleasure that moved the gears in me
It was the streets that fed the town that moved my feet out of here
It was the lock that had to break without the key
It was strength my dear
It was the chilling in my bones that made me ache for you so bad
It the screen that held the actors to make the best kiss we ever had
It was the words that fed the book that made your mind hungry for more
It was the travel to distant places outside your safest shore
It was the tug that ripped the sleeve that was how fast the instant was
It was you looking at me when I never knew- how good this was
I never knew how good this was
It was the passion that fed the destruction that took sensitivity away
It was the need that made the lies we used to get things out of our way
There was this beauty for an instant before the now came into play
The way I want to move and move
I don’t want to stay
It was the car that started the hearts to beating faster than they should
It was the motion moving us towards anything going as fast as this could
It was the ending that fed the patience that put the brakes on much of this
It is wrong to live and love too much
It is wrong like this
It is wrong to live and love too much
It is wrong like this

Goodbye Detroit

Engines wind
The marble’s crumbling
You look so small
From my airplane
From where you once came

Through bulletproof glass
I’m still awake
There you are
Through all my mistakes
The ones you helped make

When your reasons are few
Say goodbye to Detroit
For something new
When you need to be free
Come to me

Day after day I
Counted our nights
As what filled me
With my hopes and dreams

Change these colors from blue
Say goodbye to Detroit
For something new
When you need to be free
Come to me, run to me

You say sorry all you want to
You say sorry just today
You say sorry when you need to
You say sorry if you may
You say sorry when you need to
You say sorry if you may
Things won’t change

Silver

You don’t have to be a cowboy
But you’re a cowboy
You don’t have to tell me
you’re gonna stay
The lies are all around us
People are talking about us
You let her come into our life
And take you away
All of this mercy
I’m taking with me
I’ll be a cowgirl today
I’ll shoot the town red
Leave the two of you behind me
Like the Lone Ranger I’ll get away

Hi-yo silver away
Hi-yo silver away
Hi-yo silver away
Hi-yo silver away

Done With the Day

Are you tired, so tired?
Are you feeling this won’t go away?
I am thinking
Past the caffeine
Past the dreaming
Will you stay?

And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And I am
I am
As I fade

Are you willing, so willing?
Are you telling your secrets here?

And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And I am
I am

And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And you hold onto me
You hear what I say
You say baby are you done with the day?
And I am

Static

The power lines
Separate the sky
Into pieces that will never meet
And I’m outside your window
And I just want more

That little voice
Inside your head
That tells you to be so scared
You could drown the sound
With my voice
You could just let me in

For every word I believe you say
Our hearts race faster
The static fades
And I know after meeting you
There is a way to find home

Your city is broken down
But I’m here to build
And these skyscrapers
Hide all the bad outside
From us

You’re the one I trust
With my life
And you just let me inside

In My Town

It’s beautiful even trying to find the sun
From the Hawthorne bridge
I ride my bike to your house
Peddle through the clouds here

And the rain always falls
In my town, in my town

These emerald trails we hike
I could stay here all afternoon
The porch light flickers
As we say goodnight
You hug me
Say I’ll see you soon

And the rain always falls
In my town…

It’s beautiful the unknown
We don’t know how
Much time we’ve got
I’d like to settle down
And live out my life
In this coastal town

And the rain always falls
In my town…

Sun

I’m sorry
I mean it
Healing begun
Healing begun

Something is said and needed
Wonderful sun
Wonderful sun

Inside my sunshine
You’re smiling all the time

A tale is told and I
Needed to run
Needed to run
I rise today to a
Wonderful sun
Wonderful sun

Inside my sunshine
You’re smiling all the time

I’m sorry
I mean it
Healing begun
Healing begun
I rise today to a
Wonderful sun
Wonderful sun

Inside my sunshine
You’re smiling all the time

Take The Time

You were always the one
Who ran away from love
And me then
Did you feel you made a mistake?
And felt you were played
And stayed too long
Taking on the weight of the world
Lost boys and girls are stronger
Holding sacred anything
Anything that makes us we
Belong here now

And you will find it
On your way home
And you will find you
If you take your time, I know

Counting all the sleepy days
Healing hearts, little ways
To survive now
And I can’t remember your face
And what you would say
To make me feel
I’m loved somehow

And you will find it
On your way home
And you will find you
If you take your time
Take this time
Take this time to be ok

Can you feel this?
Feel your life now?
Take a hold of my hand

And you will find it
On your way home
And you will find me
If you take time
You take the time
Take this time to fly away

Produced, Engineered and Performed by Kari Newhouse
Mixed and Mastered by Dean Kattari
Robb Milne - Drums (I See you)
Cover Design - Karlie Kirkaldie
Painting and Photography - Kari Newhouse
Recorded in Portland, OR


Kari Newhouse Songs From Apartment 4 album cover

Cities and Ghosts - 2009

Above Buidings

Taking pictures above buildings
Just observing the gridded view
You descend to the edge of sunrise
And you wonder what you once knew

All we want is ours, got it-got it
All we’ve seen so far, want it-want it
All that matters now, got it-got it
Hovers above...

Buildings echoing sirens
And the rippling sound waves move
You ascend to edge of moonrise
And you circle what you once knew

All we want is ours, got it-got it
All we’ve seen so far, want it-want it
All that matters now, got it-got it
Hovers above…

Sending memories to the living
Overlooking the lucky few
You descend to the edge of moonrise
And you’re riddled by what you knew

All we want is ours, got it-got it
All we’ve seen so far, want it-want it
All that matters now, got it-got it
Hovers above…

Charm Bracelet

I’m talking to ghosts
But I swear I’m not
Whispering all my regret
Love left off
With the last thing you said
Just as if you never left - me

Spinning my mind like a carousel
Waiting to stop in front of you
Caught up in life’s little painful things
All the while missing you - you

I am wearing your charm bracelet

Incessant

Pictures of you with your eyes closed
Are my favorite
Memories playing on back of eyelids
Saving me for a rainy day
No sugar, why you do that?
All of this isolation we don’t need
We don’t need

Kill the noise
Incessant sound
Short the wires
To everything
Electric
Here

Trampoline jump
Watch the seconds drop
As we fall
Capturing time
And the ghosts I hid away
Sleeping to dream
Never taking back what we said
Smart as the words
But deeper than the books, yeah

Kill the noise
Incessant sound
Short the wires
To everything
Electric
Here…

Pictures of you with your eyes closed
Are my favorite
Memories playing on back of eyelids
Saving me for a rainy day
No sugar, no sugar, why you do this?
Sleeping to dream
And we dream to sleep

Still

If they come for me
Hide me in your love
Your blankets of denial
Hold my body close
In the softness of
The orange and unpredictable morning
I will lie so still

If I could cover us
And make this circus stop
With a kiss I’d silence your mouth
In this life, dizzying world
I’m a lost little girl
And I can’t find what I’m looking for
I will lie so still

If they come for you
Hide you in my love
With blankets of denial
If I could cover us
And make this circus stop
With a kiss I’d silence your mouth
I will lie so still.

Produced and Engineered by Paul Ellis
Mixed and Mastered by Paul Ellis
Kari Newhouse - Lead and Backing Vocals, Guitars, Keyboards
Paul Ellis - Keyboards, Sample Programming
Kevin Bowen- Bass (Above Buildings)
Photography - Kari Newhouse
Recorded in Camas, WA


Kari Newhouse LIt at Both Ends album cover

Lit at Both Ends - 2004

Blue

Blue
your touch is blue
you were never red
never even purple
come into my head
I will color us in
thoughts of you
I try to filter them
but I come up with memories
instead I am still
keeping you close
along with my
box of crayons
I choose to keep
your memory close
I will color us in
you see, I
I don’t really need
don’t really need
you anymore
I don’t really need
don’t really need
you anymore
I can create
until this is dead
until this is dead
until this is dead
or
your touch
turns
blue

Wish

I wish I had been
Gorgeous in your eyes
Beautiful that day
Beautiful in that way

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want that?
And if we had to
Give it all back
I don’t think I could
But I think you should

I wish I had
Gotten the joke
But it wasn’t funny
Baby, you’re not funny

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want it?
And if we had to
Give the love back
I don’t think I could
But I wish you would

I wish our paths
Never crossed that day
You’d have been running late
Or I had walked a different way-

I keep dreaming
I think I like that
In this lifetime
Don’t you want that?
And if we had to
Give it all back
I don’t think I could
But I think you should
Oh I do think you should

Under This Moon

I’d love you when it’s raining
when the sun scorches, the snow falls
if I knew what love was

I’d love you in the restaurant
on the mountain, near the water
but I don’t think I know how to love at all

I’d love you my whole life
yesterday, tomorrow
if I knew what time was

I’d love you through your mornings
days and midnights
but I don’t think I know how to give my time at all

there’s a cool, dry place
under this moon
and a warm, safe heart
will find me soon

17 more midnights to get through
18 to beat the feelings
I have for you

I’d love you without fortune
With no safety with no shelter
If I knew what sacrifice was

I’d love you, make an altar
Sanctuary, make the wound heal
But I don’t know how to remove my own walls

I’d love you when it’s raining
when the sun scorches, when the snow falls
if I knew what love was

I’d love you in the restaurant
on the mountain, near the water
but I don’t think I know how to love at all

I had no choice
but to tell you my name, my name

Significant

Bright as light
We were lit at both ends
Candles burning
I let go of us again
I never wanted this over
You never wanted as much
Please take me down with you
Please remember to forget us

And I only wonder why
Beyond our story, beyond the sky

Tonight you needed me
While I was letting you go
It set off all these feelings
I just don’t want you to know
I never wanted your prison
You never wanted as much
I forgive our ending
But I’ll never… release you touch

And I only wonder why
Beyond our story, beyond the sky
Are we significant you and I?
Are we significant you and I?

Delicate love
In your arms
I could not wait
Cruel trick, my fate

Sound and flame flicker
Like my television set
Will you just come over?
I still need you in my bed
I’ve been stealing love that isn’t mine
Whisper something to me sweetly
Kiss me endless and kind

And I have to wonder why
Beyond our story
Beyond the sky
Are we significant, you and I?
Are we significant, you and I?
And I only wonder why
And I only wonder why
Are we significant, you and I?
Beyond our story
Beyond the sky


Hidden

I hid the knives
In the kitchen drawer, now
I gave my love
But you want more, yeah
I’ll make you my heart
With colored paper
I’d tell you lies
If it would save us

I hid the pills
In the bathroom cabinet
I gave my body
But you want more than that
I’ll make desire
With wings to surround you
I’d tell the truth
But what good would that do?

You’re out there falling in and out of love
With people you meet
You’re breathing, making your pillow
Full of all of your dreams
You’re lovely
Everyone can see that
Especially me, especially me

I won’t love you less
I can’t love you more than this
I fall into a Snow White sleep
And wait for your kiss

Snow

I was running to my car last night
It was freezing cold
Along with the inches of snow
I was thinking about how vivid
The Michigan snow was to you once
And now how blurred that memory is
While you now know of no snow
In North Carolina
I often wonder why things changed
Why now it’s only me who knows
Of cold and snow
Why I had to buy a pair of boots
While you have probably long
Since thrown yours away

The season only has to last
For a couple of months I know
I can deal with that

But I can’t seem to deal with the season
Having to do with our friendship ending
My mind makes no sense to you anymore
And how we try so desperately hard
To keep the memory of the people
We once were, the friends we were
Alive in our minds
We force ourselves

Long since I’ve watched you go
And long since last winter’s snow
I felt hurt and I kept it inside
And I keep living on without you
Differently, yes differently

I open my car door and slam it shut
I open my car door and slam it shut

Resist

Resist, only to break down
Push ahead twice as hard
If there’s no damage now
Then there’s no damage done
Deny me this
Deny yourself
But there is still this passion

I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…

I comply to complication
I’ve always been that type of dark angel
Apologize to no one
You can’t say this doesn’t excite you
You feel it, so go with it
But always be afraid of it

I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…

You’ll live
I keep saying I’ll make it through this
I stay and smile, there’s our laughter to live for
My instincts send me down this spiral
Down this staircase
Now I afraid my resisting
Is the thing that sent you

I think you want to
I think you ought to
I think you want to
I think you ought to
Do something about it…

Behave

Sent you a little note
Because I felt like it
Wrote you a little song
It was the perfect fit
And I’m not supposed to still be in love with you
And I’m not supposed to still act like this
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave

And in the morning I was just wishing I could wake up next to you
And in the morning I was just wishing that you were here
You’d hold me in the sunlight
I could stare at your face
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave

And if I could step back
And re-trace my steps
I’d figure out
How you stole my heart
I’d make amends
And I’d get it back
I’d give it to someone
Who really knows
That I’ll behave
And I’ll behave

Sent you a little note
Because I felt like it
Wrote you a little poem
It was the perfect fit
And I’m not supposed to still be in love with you
And I know I’m not supposed to still act like this
And if there was one memory
What would you save?
You say girl
This is not how you should behave
And I say
This is exactly how I should behave

Kaleidoscope

I thought I could be your drug
Cause you were my wine
And we could disappear
Into this sweetness, you and I

You’re calling me baby on the phone now
What exactly does that mean?
And he’s saying I love you before we hang up
But I can’t feel it from here

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope

I pour this drink full, pour this glass
Swirl with ice, down the sink it goes
I put your taste, your smile, your laugh
Somewhere where I can’t find them

You’re calling me baby on the phone now
What exactly does that mean?
And he’s saying I love you before we hang up
But I can’t feel it from here

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope

Stay still now in my arms
Be calm, in our storm
Bring fire to my heart
But just don’t touch me anymore

You want me to look
Into your kaleidoscope
You’re a beautiful mess
On your love I choke
You want me to be part of your kaleidoscope

Montreal

For all the times you fell apart, dear
Even though you’re gone
I’ve got these pieces of you
I called a cab ‘cause you’d been drinking
I wrote your address down
While you fell asleep to the sounds
Of our city

I don’t think I could really hold you
My awkward arms, your elegance
We never made it to Montreal, dear
I got your postcard today
The one you wrote in some café
While it was raining

Tonight my lips can feel you kiss them
So you’ll be my ghost
I’ll be the one you need
Sometimes I still pick up the phone, dear
To hear your voice
To hear you tell me
To go to sleep
In our city

Perfectly Complete

Do you get me
When you kiss me like that?
Or does it just feel good?
It’s as simple as that

You liar
And devil
Perfectly complete
For me

Did you mean to
Stop over tonight?
Or were you just lost
In this big city night?

You liar
My devil
Perfectly serene
For me

Did you mean to
Call me like that?
Or was it the drinking
That makes you feel bad?

You liar

Do you need me
When you kiss me like that?
Or does just feel good?
It’s as simple as that

You liar
And devil
You liar
My devil
Perfectly complete
For me

Can I Skip The Ride Home

A night without you
A mist that shows reflection
Can I catch that running train?
A smart man with words
Makes for funny talking
You can have this dance
You can this dance
But I can skip the ride home?

I’m slipping
A moment made for falling over
More will follow
I need to hold on tightly
Onto your coattails
Like in those child star movies
Adults play out kid themes
You can have this dance with me

I keep my tired eyes open
Loss for words
The watchmen on the highways
Into this blue stretch of forgotten sky
A night without you

You can have this dance
You can this dance
But I can skip the ride home?

Fine

It now comes near, my winter mind
I have loved you for all this time
My October heart
Your November smile
Our merry December
Our new January
Little tears in February
All of these months you were mine
All of these months after you
All of these months I live without you
I will be fine
I will be fine

Produced by Kari Newhouse
Co-Produced by Martin Carrillo
Engineered by Martin Carrillo
Mixed by Martin Carrillo and Kari Newhouse
Kari Newhouse - Vocals, guitars, piano, keyboards
Alan Combies - Drums
Douglas Freyre - Fretless Bass
Bill Esparza - Tenor Saxophone (Can I Skip the Ride Home)
Ed Cogan - B-3 Organ (Resist)
Martin Carrillo - String Arrangements, Programming, Organ
Initial tracking by Aaron Kaplan at Icon Studios, Hollywood, CA
Additional recording by Kari Newhouse
Masterd by Martin Carrillo
Recorded in Los Angeles, CA